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The Costly choice

May 24, 2016

I’ve been doing a lot of re living, re discovery, re organization, re finding.

My last post was in February. I remember clearly because It was a month after I turned 25,  It comes to me because February was a very meaningful month to me, A month I made a decision, a very groundbreaking decision, to be HAPPY!.

This decision came with a price, I was selfish, I thought of myself only. I did not care whose clothes were dried by the sun or made wet by the rain. I created a world, a kingdom, for myself. In this Kingdom, I was KING.

What do Kings do?  or what do I think Kings do? They walk around with royalty. They make everything done in their direction, they made things fall into place according to their preference. It was not a problem that the people of the kingdom were hungry, the KING only has to be fed and plump.

I chose a platform, I picked a side of a coin without having to bet or gamble for it. There were two sides glaring at me and I went for the one that made sense, the one that might mean trampling on lots of grasses, that might mean a meltdown of  fully frozen Ice, that side that meant only one thing, Happiness for me!

It was a dream, a world of fantasy. Oh so their existed a life like that? Just choosing without rethinking? ?Just deciding without hindrances? Grabbing opportunities without weighing its outcomes? Only doing things for yourself alone? Hay this seemed like Uhuru for me, finally!

There came that steady voice of reasoning trying its best to push forth reasons I shouldn’t be this way, but who cares about a voice when the body and soul felt safe, all drenched in happiness. It was not just the best thing to do, it was the only thing, the only existing thing to do in this kingdom I called mine.

This selfishness also came with closing all holes. No, no one would ruin this. No one was allowed to. If you showed a line drawing towards that, you had to go. You had to be done away with, You were perceived as being negative and there was zero room  for negativity.

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It went on for a long eternity seeming time, then it was Snatched.

 

 

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10 Comments

  • Reply Sheedah May 24, 2016 at 4:07 pm

    Nothing that’s meant for you will ever depart you. Alas! Something better is on it away

  • Reply Sa'eedah Imam May 24, 2016 at 5:34 pm

    Baby U have written the best thing in the season….the new colour of the sky is selfish. Trust me “wish i join ur team soon”

    • Reply omotolaniee May 31, 2016 at 1:07 pm

      Thank you my white witch. lol. I want to read from you soon, I miss those wits!

  • Reply Bunmi May 24, 2016 at 6:47 pm

    Continue please. I’m perfectly sure the story I just read has another ending. It won’t end that way. Whether you know the end or not, keep writing. Life remains beautiful, despite the many hitches that punctuate the perfect moments. Honeybun, you let your heart be beautiful, stay beautiful.

    I’ll wait for the other part babes and I know it’ll be beautiful ❤️😘😍😊🙃🤗.

    • Reply omotolaniee May 31, 2016 at 1:06 pm

      Bunmi you always know!
      Thank you for listening, for understanding, for never ceasing to care. You are a beautiful soul in and out and I am in ‘awe of your awesomeness’

      The other part is in the works. Thank you!

  • Reply ENIOLA May 24, 2016 at 6:54 pm

    Got me spell bound to the last paragraph. Your writing skills keeps doing me 🙂 😊😊😊😊
    I’m proud to say I know you.
    Keep ’em coming.
    Ok now, the post. Please remain in this new found space and guard it jealously. Like 25 came upon you almost unawares so will 30 and beyond and you’d hate to look back and realize you never really relieved your youthfulness. *hopefully that makes sense*

    • Reply omotolaniee May 31, 2016 at 1:04 pm

      Thank you Eniola. You never stop inspiring me,I pray the good lord keeps you happy

  • Reply Enigmatic AKLaw^ (@ayodelelawal) June 22, 2016 at 8:56 am

    How I only get to read such wonderful stuff rather belatedly is something I should work on.

    Short, simple, sweet & sincere. Sometimes, selfishness saves!

    Great job. We await the next.

    • Reply omotolaniee June 22, 2016 at 12:36 pm

      Thanks so much Ayodele. I’d work on being more consistent

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